hmmm…
February 27, 2008 by mariaisabelmatus
wala lng, just want to write something.. feel bad lng ulit siguro.. just recently, my nalaman n nman ako. and just like usual, parang wala lng. glad dn ksi my new friend n nman ako.. hayyyy.. until when kya? ewan.. siguro tlagang only GOD knows when.. parang pagod n ata ako.. parang ayoko ng maghintay.. parang i wanted to give up n…parang wala n.. or talagang bad lng ang feeling ko? hay ewan.. ewan ko nga ba.. im old enough for these things.. pero eto p dn… tlaga bng when you’re in love ganun? hayyy.. karma?! eto b un? wala nman akong ginawang bad ah.. or is it just my thinking n wala nga? how would i know? hayyyy… glad to have friends n magsasabi skin nun.. kaya lng, sariling sikap.. i still have to realized it myself.. i have to reflect.. minsan i just wanted to go somewhere.. to a place na nobody knows me.. for a retreat.. hayyy.. i think i need a retreat talga.. kaya lng ang tagal p nun.. sna merong malapit n… i still have to make my self busy.. para indi ko nman msyado mfeel tong bad feeling n ito.. and i dont want to entertain this either.. hayyy, ang life.. talaga bng gnyan? SACRIFICE?! talagang iyan ata ang right term para sa mga happenings ngayon s life ko eh.. hayyy.. cheerful person nman ako.. pero pag ganitong moments, parang nakakalimutan kong maging cheerful.. hehehe.. i know only GOD can help me.. so i better PRAY.. and ask for STRENGTH.. to ENDURE all of this.. hayyy.. thanks..
